Kids or friends

friends my little pony

I have some wonderful friends. Some of them have come through for me in massive ways, supporting me while Harley was in the NICU, coming over for wine or meeting for lunches since she’s been home, and generally just being awesome and supportive. I remember trying to do the same when I had friends with babies – going to their house if easier, being the one to reach out more because I figured they were busy, that sorta thing. It just makes me sad to realize that I’m also losing friends now.

Before Dean and I decided we wanted to spawn a minion, he told me that I could choose, kids or cats. I opted for cats, and we have two adorable furry babies. Unlike those little ones, though, it seems that procreating has gotten in the way of my social life. At least for some friends. But I’m wondering how much of a bad thing that is.

I get it, I’m not as available as I once was. Dinners don’t really work for me unless they’re in someone’s home, although Dean and I have managed to take Harley with us for a few dinners out at restaurants/bars. I generally just bring Harley along with me for anything – it’s easier that way than worrying about her. This way, I can nurse her if she needs it, and usually she sleeps while I’m out anyway. So I don’t mind meeting with people and doing fun things with my little princess along for the ride – I even go to meetings with her and shopping and whatever else needs doing.

This means that I’m starting to think that I’m not the problem, those friends are. I’m almost as available as I was back in the day, if people don’t mind the fact that I arrive with a tiny one along for the ride. If people don’t mind that I might need to nurse now and then or attend to the spawnling. If people don’t mind that they can get my undivided attention while making rocking motions with the pram. If people don’t mind that I’m a mom now and I have more than myself to look after.

It makes me sad, though. I thought my friendships would continue after having a kid. Sure, I might see people a bit less frequently, but we’d still see each other. And for those friendships that have continued, it’s exactly that – the where and the when might change, but we’re still in touch, still sharing what’s going on, still friends. But for others, I might as well have disappeared when I made a person. I feel like my existence has been snuffed out in their eyes because I now have another life to take care of.

Was this a choice I should have been made aware of? Were my options kids or friends? Or are these the kinds of friends who would have disappeared anyway?

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  • TriangularRoom

    Those are probably the kinds of friends who would have disappeared along the way anyway. They have likely done you a favour…

    Also, best header image.

    • Her Highness the Hipster

      haha, thanks! was the only thing that seemed fitting πŸ˜›

  • EverythingAliex.com

    Nice article, thank you

    • Her Highness the Hipster

      thanks for reading and commenting! always appreciated πŸ™‚

  • This is a tricky thing. There’s also the part to consider where some people just aren’t comfortable with babies and toddlers. I have some of those, but they still have a degree of interest in K. And don’t mind when he’s around when we do stuff. Also losing some folks makes room for better people πŸ˜€

    • Her Highness the Hipster

      totally agree, which is why i never expect people to hold H or anything unless they ask. not expecting people to love her (although she is totally lovable), just to still be my friend… but at least i’m making new mommy friends πŸ™‚

  • Naxie

    i think it’s more about the other person and their particular life circumstance than anything else. i mean, you ARE extremely lovable and a very loyal friend. when i became a mom, there were a few friends who faded away. for the most part, they were people who didn’t have kids, didn’t want them at that point – and had beliefs about how everything was going to change once i became a parent. i remember someone telling me that if only i could “put the baby away” when she wanted to talk to me, then we’d be okay. i was hurt, of course – and it took me time to realize that some friendships grow and change as life does what it does – and others just come to the end of the road when a new chapter unfolds.

    • Her Highness the Hipster

      you’re right! I never mind if friends come and go, but it just makes me sad to think that it’s because of procreating. then again, we all go through phases in our lives, and becoming a mother is a rather permanent thing that doesn’t always fit other people’s phases.

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